a brief missive on blogging.

i have come to the conclusion

that maintaining a blog is...

• purely selfish
• very vain
• completely unfair

i'll explain.

it is for purely selfish reasons that i blog.

i blog to empty my head

of the words that

swim around in there

day in

day out

(although maybe not to the fullest extent

not knowing whose eyes may rest here).

i blog because if i don't discard these words

at some point

they will lead to catastrophic events

i'm sure.

it is so very vain of me to throw my life in the void.

i try to be cautious of this

my other blog pages probably apply more

to the vanity

than this one.

sometimes when i'm writing

i feel like a teenage girl

checking the bathroom mirror

for the eleventh time

in four minutes.

i hope that i do not come off as vain.

i hope that i am not perceived as someone

shouting from the corner of the wires

'look at me!

look at me!'

finally

it is totally and completely unfair

this blogging business.

i open the pages

and allow each and every one of you

to look at my life.

obviously

this is my choice

(which kind of goes back to the vanity side of all of this)

but at the same time

i throw my soul on the wires

naked

exposed.

it's truly a feeling of rejection at times.

it's like the mirrored glass

in an interrogation room;

i provide both the answers

and questions

and you

the void

get to sit and watch.

don't be afraid to step in

once in awhile

and throw in your hat.

do you flash the world? or do you prefer to sit and watch?

go well.