this year
as i head full force into what lies ahead
i have decided to approach 2011 in terms of asanas
(asanas, in this instance, referring to yoga poses).
as i head full force into what lies ahead
i have decided to approach 2011 in terms of asanas
(asanas, in this instance, referring to yoga poses).
the discipline pose or tighteningyourbeltasana.
i have
in the past
talked about my struggles with weight -
hell, i even started a blog to document all my challenges with weight
(you'll notice an obvious lack of posting on that blog...)
as i began to think about the coming year
and all i hope to achieve in it
weight
and weight loss
were an obvious
and recurring
goal
ambition
whatever.
but the more i thought about it
the more i realized that my goal is not necessarily to lose weight
my goal
is to be more disciplined in all areas of my life.
i am a victim of society, the media
and my own lack of discipline.
okay
mostly just my own lack of discipline.
i eat
when i'm not hungry.
i buy
when i need nothing.
i cave
every time i see that starbucks siren.
and as a result...
i fight with body image
usually following several desserts
i struggle with chest pains
every time my account dips below a certain balance
and i combat the hopelessness that consumes me
when i think ahead to my future
physically
financially.
so
i'm tightening my belt
not only financially but
i hope
physically as well
and i'm doing this for two reasons...
...because i can't wait to get back here... |
...and my girl. because i don't want her grappling with the same insecurities i do. |
so i vow...
the next time i'm at the store
i stick to my list.
“People had more than they needed, people didn’t know what was precious and what wasn’t, people threw away things they kill each other for now.” ~ Eli from "The Book of Eli"
go well.
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